Monday, December 24, 2012

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas from our home to yours.

So grateful for the baby born to take away the sin of the world.
Our debt is paid. We are free! Let us live and give as if it is true. 

It has been an adventurous year to say the least.
So grateful for my family and all the blessings and growth that come with them.

Here is a little something I will leave you to try. I found this recipe on one of Ann's links she often shares. We have made it about a half dozen times so far and it never disappoints. Great gift to give as well as indulge in yourself. It only has five ingredients, totally grain free and super yummy. Enjoy!

Monday, October 29, 2012

Faith is a Being Satisfied in All that God is.....

What's evil? The suicidal preference of empty wells over the river of delights flowing from heaven. That's evil! The battle against evil is not to constantly say "No, no, no. Bad, bad, bad." There's no power in that. The power of the flesh is coming at you, the power of the devil is coming at you, and you're going to [muster] up your willpower and make that the victory? You're not. You're not.

 One thing will give you the victory: Faith is the victory that overcomes the world. And faith is a being satisfied in all that God is for us in Jesus Christ. You've got to stoke that engine every morning so that the evils that are clawing at you loose its fangs. You can't have me, I've seen Jesus this morning. Lust, you can't have me. Greed, you can't have me. Fear of man, you can't have me. Bitterness and anger, you can't have me. I've seen Jesus this morning.
John Piper

Saturday, October 27, 2012

That kind of day

"You can't get a cup of tea big enough or a book long enough to suit me."

C.S. Lewis

Saturday, September 15, 2012

Just because........

 He is growing up.

 No more baby around here.

 He is a big boy now!

So handsome, fun and such a blessing.
Can't believe this guy is weeks away from being four years old!

Friday, July 27, 2012

A Camping We Will Go

We are off in a few days camping. This is the first time we have gone as a family. After this I will let you know if we ever go again :)

Eli is officially potty trained.  Woo Hoo! Perfect timing.

I thought I'd leave you with a few sites that I have read heavily over the last six months. The eating lifestyle I have chosen is explained in both places. There is far more to the story then just the Paleo diet but this way if your interested you can start exploring while I am away.

Paleo Parents

Paleo Mom

EveryDay Paleo

See you in a week or so.

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Where have I been?

Shrinking.........from 241lbs to 194lbs (so far). I have lost a total of 47lbs in the last 16 months.

This is before:

 This picture was taken in March 2011 with my friend Stacy at With Great Joy. We met for breakfast one morning. This was the first time we had seen each other face to face. Love my blog buddies! This is about the only picture I have of myself this size.....I just didn't take pictures of myself. This is me at 241lbs and size 20 jeans.

 This is me now...194lbs

 These pants are size 13 (weird eh?) and my size 14 jeans are to big. Time to go shopping for size 12.

So there you have it, me finally figuring out how to not just drop weight but feel healthy and more energetic then ever. I conquered my PCOS and am medication free due to the changes I have made in my life. I had tried everything except what I did and worked for me!

Aren't ya just aching to know what I did? I will eventually tell you :o) And I did not starve myself just in case you are wondering.

There are other changes some of which have been painful. This is in part why things have been quiet around here. Not sure what writing will look like form this point on. I am making no commitments to anything....not that I ever really did anyway. I am excited about the new chapter of life God has opened up for us.

More to come.....

Thursday, July 19, 2012

Business in Great Waters

"He whose life is one even and smooth path, will see but little of the glory of the Lord, for he has few occasions of self-emptying, and hence, but little fitness for being filled with the revelation of God. They who navigate little streams and shallow creeks, know but little of the God of tempests; but they who “do business in great waters,” these see his “wonders in the deep.” Among the huge Atlantic-waves of bereavement, poverty, temptation, and reproach, we learn the power of Jehovah, because we feel the littleness of man. Thank God, then, if you have been led by a rough road: it is this which has given you your experience of God’s greatness and lovingkindness."

Read the rest of the daily reading from Morning and Evening by Charles Spurgeon.

Many friends facing difficult things right now.

Rough roads......

Business in great waters.......

Waves of difficulty........

Lord, let us know you here and know that this is not where we will stay.

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Living House

"Imagine yourself as a living house. God comes in to rebuild that house. At first, perhaps, you can understand what He is doing. He is getting the drains right and stopping the leaks in the roof and so on; you knew that those jobs needed doing and so you are not surprised. But presently He starts knocking the house about in a way that hurts abominably and does not seem to make any sense. What on earth is He up to? The explanation is that He is building quite a different house from the one you thought of - throwing out a new wing here, putting on an extra floor there, running up towers, making courtyards. You thought you were being made into a decent little cottage: but He is building a palace. He intends to come and live in it Himself.”

― C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity

Been hanging out with this quote the last several days. There have been places where I have asked

What on earth is He up to?

He is building and using. It feels odd and uncomfortable. Yet, he is the master builder and architect.

Saturday, April 21, 2012

Remembering Again

I thought I had escaped this year. Those emotions that take you back to the day, the time, the feel and even the smell of that little boy gone. I remember like it happened last week.

I think it is a gift. Other times of the year I forget, I feel distant and disconnected from Jonah after ten years time. Then his birthday rolls around and it comes rushing back, fresh and vivid. I am again surprised by the grief.

Grief, that gift of a strange kind....... the companion that keeps you connected to whom you have lost through the pain of remembering.

I am really feeling the "one mores" right now. Grateful for remembering. Thankful for a God who cares for me where I am and cares for my boy who is right next to Him.

Thursday, April 19, 2012

Happy Birthday Jonah!

Today marks ten years since Jonah was born and then went to be with the Lord. Ten years! Really?
Where has this decade gone? We remember today with much thankfulness. Though we miss him and grief is a visiting companion, I truly am at rest. Though I often wonder about Jonah. Did he have red hair and green eyes like his sister?  I am more often grateful for what his loss has brought about in our lives and how our faith has been made more solid each passing year. Short lives can carry a big legacy. Jonah's absences has brought much goodness into our lives. So we remember his life and death in knowing we will see him again and that he is safe and happy in a place we long to go.

 Every year around April 19th we visit this place. It has special meaning to us as a family. This cliff is where we released Jonah's ashes and said our goodbyes. Visiting there is like visiting him in many ways.

It is a beautiful place!

These flowers have been blooming every year we are there for the past ten years. I love being greeted by them when we go. An old friend waiting to see us.

 A quick snuggle on the bench with my littlest man.

The mountains mixed with the sea is something I will never grow weary of seeing.
 I truly live in one of the most beautiful places in the world.

My peeps doing one of their favorite things, hunting for sea creatures. Flipping rocks, chasing crabs, holding purple starfish and crying out for us to come look at each and every find.

Cousins sitting on Jonah's cliff just girl chatting.

Sunday, April 15, 2012

Living As You Are Called

Sorry for the tease (almost a month ago) about new exciting things and then, nothing. I have taken to being in the moment far better then I ever have before. A big part of accomplishing this has been to be online and in social media less and be "with" whom ever is in front of me. I will admit that I do have this on again, off again relationship with facebook. Sometimes I just want to ditch FB all together. Not because there is anything wrong with it but the temptations it presents me are not in my favor. It becomes a way to feel connected but not be really connected. For those far away it is a gift, those up close.....I am not so sure. I can get wrapped up in spending far to much time taking in snippets of information and not really thinking and processing for myself. Output (writing) helps me think and process.

Before I start sharing all the new changes, some SO good, others hard and sad but for the good, I want to address a few things. The on-line world, as I mentioned above, comes with it's set of advantages and disadvantages. One major disadvantage, especially for women is COMPARISON. That drive to do it better, or more efficient, or more beautiful ........ The tiny glimpse we get in the virtual world of  the real people behind the words and pictures can cause us to think we are NOT ENOUGH. I struggle with blogs that only put forth the pretty. We have to remember that when we only see and hear the "pretty" we aren't getting the whole picture. Now, I am no pessimist. I just know that we are drawn to doing things well and good but due to sin we muddle that up often. God made us in His image and part of that is a hunger for beauty, desire to do well and be the best we can. Yet, I think all to often, we take the standard of "best" from others and what they do. Each of us has a path, a journey, a story that is uniquely our own designed by a perfect craftsman. When we see what we would like our life, our home, our home education, our bodies to look like through a small virtual window we have a very narrow view. There is always more to the story, the picture, the method and the person then what we get in this setting. I have gained much from on line relationships but most of those have had a context outside the face of their blog or facebook.

As I set out to share my story and recent path I want to start from this point of view. The only comparison to be made is against the gospel and His standard which is one of great GRACE and MERCY. The state of our homeschool, our homes and dare I say our bodies, is not the priority. The state of our hearts is the bottom line. The life HE has called YOU to (1 Corinthians 7:17). When we have a right view of our life in Him we often steward our bodies and environment differently. That will look distinct from one person to another, as it should.

So as I walk down this sharing path remember:

Homeschooling is not the gospel
Home Decor is not the gospel
A fit thin body is not the gospel
A perfectly clean house is not the gospel
Simple Natural living is not the gospel
Organic grain free eating is not the gospel
Natural family planning and breastfeeding is not the gospel
Homesteading and growing your own food is not the gospel
Being artistic and creative is not the gospel
Being an avid reader or writer is not the gospel
Being smart and well liked is not the gospel

Each of us may be gifted in one or more of these areas or have great passion for them,. I do on a few counts. So let us use our gifts, talents and passions for His glory and not to measure ourselves against some imaginary standard or one another.

Aren't these things just a reflection of the gospel in our lives when they hold the right place? A means to steward the resources we have been given to further His glory. The key is that they are only a means and not the end (another blog post in itself). We have to be so careful to keep the truth central and not worship the methods and practices that get us there in our daily lives.

We do not dare to classify or compare ourselves with some who commend themselves. When they measure themselves by themselves and compare themselves with themselves, they are not wise.
2 Corinthians 10:12

Saturday, April 14, 2012

Happy 12th!

My girl and one of her best friends.

You are such a blessing to your family and your mama.

Happy Birthday Journey!

Sunday, January 08, 2012

A New Year

Usually, by now, I have a new word for the year. I have my reading list compiled. I have the areas I want to grow in all compiled and mapped out. I've got my plan all squeaky clean polished and ready to go.

This Year.................

No book list, no word, maps or plans.

Just life, lived together in all it's messiness and day at a time.

I have all I need for life and godliness in His word and truth, my relationships and the Holy Spirit.

My new motto:

Love the one your with.....I mean really love them. Repeat again tomorrow.

Whether that be my children, my husband, neighbour or grocery clerk.

Not sure where this year will take me but I don't need a charted map because He has that all taken care of for me. Even when I had a map it often wasn't accurate :o)

I want to live what I already know, loving Him with all of me and then hopefully love the guy right in front of me.

 "Teacher, which is the great commandment in the Law?" 37 And he said to him, "You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. 38 This is the great and first commandment. 39 And a second is like it: You shall love your neighbor as yourself. 40 On these two commandments depend all the Law and the Prophets."

Matthew 22: 36-40

Happy New Year!