Everyone has a story. Moments of victory, great joy and also times of sorrow and excruciating loss. We are all changed and grow through these things we face. God in his perfection has good plans for each of us though not always comfortable nor our first choice. Our story has had much sorrow. More recently, much joy with the birth of baby Eli and Aaron's much needed stable and decent paying job. Life on many fronts has become more comfortable. The growth we have gained through the times of loss and pain are priceless. They are like treasures never dreamed of nor expected. It's only in distance that I can look back and see the foundations God built for what he had down the road. I have more faith now then I did then......I have SO much to go back too when life gets crazy. The evidence of His grace not only on the cross but in my little part of the world is undeniable. He really does provide ALL I need for life!
So armed with this we move into the next chapter of our story. A place that I do and will need much faith as I walk what He has laid out for this family, my family.
I am bit of a wimp. A controversy wimp to be exact. I started blogging to share, to grow, to write and encourage...to be encouraged. As I became more involved in the blogging community I began to see that strong convictions and words often were rewarded with criticism and sometimes flames. People due to anonymity were willing to say things they might not be wiling to say face to face. This really bothered me. I wouldn't call myself a people pleaser but I definitely don't like unnecessary conflict so I avoided any topics that might stir the pot. I see the possible conflict involved in this topic as necessary. In order to grow and learn there must be pressure, stretching and yes, conflict. I see this with my kids, my marriage and friendships, even in my relationship with God. I as a parent need to find and give the best I can to my children and train them up in the way they should go. What I am learning has changed how I see some things that I was pretty sure about.
As I have briefly mentioned before our son Isaac has been diagnosised with ADHD and also ODD (Oppositional Defiant Disorder) along with some possible sensory issues. In the Christian community there are many different ideas and thoughts on psychiatric diagnosis. Are they real or just entrenched sin and lack of gospel centered thinking? Is a disobedient bratty child simply due to permissive parenting? If we discipline more consistently and diligently the child will turn around right? Is first time obedience the be all and end all of parenting? If it is, are you a failure as the parent of the difficult child? What is inability to understand the consequences of your actions compared to childhood folly? Could diet really have an impact on behaviors? Do we use drugs?
These are all questions I have been grappling with for along time. In attempt to grow and process I will start to grapple with them here in this little space in cyber world. I do so with some reservation. I can only trust that the differing opinions and conversations would be based on a desire to encourage one another and learn. I don't have all the answers, not even close.
As we start this conversation and I begin to write this chapter of our story, pray for my son, for our family and please share your own experiences. I find such beauty in the sharing that takes place from one life to another. I believe that is part of God's story for man as we await His return.