Saturday, August 30, 2008

Praise You In This Storm

My blogging break is over :o) And though I would love to report that all is peachy, much has happened over the last few weeks that is cause for prayer. First of all the baby is fine....just want to say that up front. I am sooooo grateful for this.....God has be incredibly gracious to us.
My husbands job is up in the air right now (long story). Any day we could get the phone call that he no longer has a job. Right now we aren't sure he will get paid week to week. Things are very tight and one missed check could be real trouble for us. Many of you know about our moving saga's....so longing not to repeat that again. Please pray that another job will come quickly or the current situation will resolve. We literally don't know daily if he will continue to have a job. The possible loss of his job creates many scenarios around the baby, our home life, etc that I wrestle to the ground daily.
There has been some issues with our doctor and the scheduled section (will tell that story in full later). Pray that this will be resolved quickly. It has created lots of anxiousness for me. Bringing back dreams of the death of our son Jonah. The crazy emergency c-section of our son Isaac that could have gone very badly. I am hormonal and honestly dealing with fear of loosing this one too. It's unfounded and irrational but it's a daily battle that I feel I loose often.

This is one of my favorite songs right now. I came across this video with the music and wanted to share it. God is so faithful. I am simply so tired. My life feels like a huge upward climb that is zapping all my strength. I don't do weakness well (because of my pride). I am weak right now and my only strength are His promises and truth. We will be carried through this, I am just so glad that:

He is who He is....no matter where I am .

Because right now I feel so done, weak and unable. If he doesn't carry me I will fall BUT he has promised he will....so I let go and trust I will be caught.

I hope you are encouraged and I am so grateful for your prayers. God has brought me to my knees and with my temptation to pride and arrogance...this isn't a bad thing.








Praise You In This Storm
words by Mark Hall/music by Mark Hall and Bernie Herms
I was sure by now, God, that You would have reached down,
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.
And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth

5 comments:

Cara said...

Thanks for your transparency, my friend. We will pray for you and your dear family.

Heather said...

Wow. That's a lot to be dealing with. Praying for you here. {Hugs}

Stacy said...

Mrs. M,

Welcome back! I will be praying for your husband's job situation, as well as the doctor stuff. And also that God would bring you deep peace about the safety of your little one. :)

I wanted to thank you for your encouraging comment to me on my "Boys" post. :)

It was so encouraging for me to hear you say that you are on the other side of a similar season. It has been a *very* challenging two years with this son of mine, and I think I start believing the lie that it's always going to be this difficult. (And maybe it will be, I realize...) But most likely not.

I appreciate your advice to keep doing what we know is right, and wait for the fruit. (I can't wait to see it!!!!) My son pushes me, too-- sometimes I think I might literally go crazy for frustration, honestly. I just need to continue to persevere in diligence and *in love* (which is the challenge).

Thank you, dear you. I needed to hear it.

~Stacy

Rebeca said...

I'm excited for you! I didn't realixe you were getting that close. I pray that all will go well, and that you will have peace in the midst of uncertainty regardig your husband's job. With love, Rebeca

Gen said...

I am always in such admiration towards how strong your faith is. Beautiful!

So whenever you feel "weak", know that your conviction has made you so much stronger than what most of us will ever be able to say.

God Bless.