Saturday, August 30, 2008

Praise You In This Storm

My blogging break is over :o) And though I would love to report that all is peachy, much has happened over the last few weeks that is cause for prayer. First of all the baby is fine....just want to say that up front. I am sooooo grateful for this.....God has be incredibly gracious to us.
My husbands job is up in the air right now (long story). Any day we could get the phone call that he no longer has a job. Right now we aren't sure he will get paid week to week. Things are very tight and one missed check could be real trouble for us. Many of you know about our moving saga' longing not to repeat that again. Please pray that another job will come quickly or the current situation will resolve. We literally don't know daily if he will continue to have a job. The possible loss of his job creates many scenarios around the baby, our home life, etc that I wrestle to the ground daily.
There has been some issues with our doctor and the scheduled section (will tell that story in full later). Pray that this will be resolved quickly. It has created lots of anxiousness for me. Bringing back dreams of the death of our son Jonah. The crazy emergency c-section of our son Isaac that could have gone very badly. I am hormonal and honestly dealing with fear of loosing this one too. It's unfounded and irrational but it's a daily battle that I feel I loose often.

This is one of my favorite songs right now. I came across this video with the music and wanted to share it. God is so faithful. I am simply so tired. My life feels like a huge upward climb that is zapping all my strength. I don't do weakness well (because of my pride). I am weak right now and my only strength are His promises and truth. We will be carried through this, I am just so glad that:

He is who He matter where I am .

Because right now I feel so done, weak and unable. If he doesn't carry me I will fall BUT he has promised he I let go and trust I will be caught.

I hope you are encouraged and I am so grateful for your prayers. God has brought me to my knees and with my temptation to pride and arrogance...this isn't a bad thing.

Praise You In This Storm
words by Mark Hall/music by Mark Hall and Bernie Herms
I was sure by now, God, that You would have reached down,
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.
And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Baby News

We had our 31 weeks ultrasound today. They reconfirmed it is a "He"...which I am glad, because I kept hearing stories about wrong predictions of the sex of the baby. So confirmed by "two" ultrasounds....IT"S A BOY! I like saying that.

He is doing well. We took our two other children today and their reactions were cute. They really had a hard time figuring out what they were seeing but seemed to enjoy it none the less. Baby is actually growing quite ahead for his dates but so did my 5 year old (9lbs. 6oz at 38 weeks). I think it is the big heads my babies tend to have that throw off the measurements. It is actually reassuring that he is larger due to an early c-section. So Lord willing in about 6-7 weeks we will meet this big guy face to face.
I still can't believe I get to do this again.....I am so grateful!

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Happy Birthday Big Boy!

Yesterday my little man turned 5 years old.
Where does the time go!

He is the comedian of the family, constantly looking to make other people laugh. When he wakes in the morning he is cheerful (loudly cheerful I might add) and ready to go with hugs, kisses and lots of conversation. He's always been a morning person. I love that about him!

He is so curious. He stops and wonders about things I so easily pass by. I will never forget the many conversations we have had about how babies come out and the anatomy books we consulted along the way. Do most 5 year old boys ask such detailed questions?

Yesterday he planned the family menu for the day and I made him a blueberry pie for his birthday. He had such a happy grateful heart about it all.....that was such a blessing to this mama's heart.


We love you.

Sunday, August 03, 2008

Blogging Break

For the month of August I am taking a break from blogging.....I kinda already have been by simply not posting :o) I don't really feel obligate to blog but do enjoy it and so enjoy the on line community. My mind is in so many other places right now. Working on a little quilt with my 8 yr old, gardening, preparing for baby, school in 4 weeks and sleeping . I have serious baby brain as well, I am indecisive and forgetful...not used to that!

I will still pop in for baby updates and the occasion quote but overall I am leaving blog land for most of August but I will be back!

All is well with baby by the way..... 29 weeks tomorrow. We set up the crib yesterday. I spent time washing a few baby clothes. I found the sleepers my older kids came home from the hospital in.....what great memories. It felt good! I still am humbled by the fact that I get to have another baby. God is so kind and merciful.

Have a great remaining summer!