Thursday, April 19, 2007

Happy Birthday Jonah!

Today five years ago our first son Jonah was born and went to heaven on April 19. I intended to write our and his story on this birthday. I did not anticipate moving at the same time :o) I will do this later when we are more settled.

We miss you Jonah but know you are in the best place there is; safe from sorrow, suffering and pain. Your big sister wondered what you looked like now and if you were having a birthday party in heaven. We imagined you were and she wished she could be there.

Happy Birthday baby boy. We will see you again!

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Lack of Coherent Thought :o)

I have been trying to make a second post on Jerry Bridges book "The Disciplines of Grace". I have begun to face reality. I will be hit or miss at blogging for the next few weeks. My husband is out of town with a new job for the next 2 weeks and we move April 30th. So..... little need to say I am a bit busy. When I do have time (rarely) I am so distracted that I can't get my brain to formulate coherent thoughts LOL!
I haven't fallen of the face of the's just spinning a bit fast right now :o)

Spinning with good change and God's goodness to us!

Saturday, April 14, 2007

Happy Birthday Princess Ballerina Butterfly Girl!

It is hard to believe my oldest is 7 years old today. She is such a blessing and treasure to our family. I couldn't ask for a more sweet and compassionate little girl. She has a passion to learn making my job as teacher so much easier. She eagerly cleans the living room for me without being asked. She is always ready for a hug and snuggle. She is also my reading buddy. We love hot chocolate and a good book together. What a gift I have in my little girl.

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Thinking Blogger????

I have been nominated for a Thinking Blogger Award by Heather at Stepping Heavenward. Let's just say I am shocked and honored at the same time. I have appreciated Heathers blog from the beginning of this adventure. She is one of the first blogs that became a main-stay for me. I have gleaned so much from her about homeschooling to theology. If she hadn't been nominated first she would have been on my list!

Here are my five nominations:

Motherhood Apologia: Melanie's blog is always thought provoking. She takes time and effort to communicate her thoughts well. I also appreciate her tackling things most people avoid. She has really just gotten started blogging and I am looking forward to so much more to come.

A Path Made Straight: I have just recently discovered this blog. I so enjoy her honesty about life at home and as a mom. Her desire to serve and please God in her home is such an encouragement. She also writes very well.

Mommy Life: This is another blog I have just recently started reading. I so enjoy reading Barbara's blog. A mom of 12 with a wealth of experience. She addresses many issues and concerns facing mom's today. She is a mom who doesn't avoid politics. She also has a big heart for the disabled and the issues they face.

The Purple Cellar: This blog gets to the heart of the issue. It challenges me in my biblical thinking.

Lux Venit: Leslie has already been nominated but couldn't pass up doing it again. This is one of my favorite blogs. She has an honest, real and sincere desire to grow in the Lord and glory him. I enjoy reading her thoughts and conclusions on many different topics. I also love her book reviews.

Should you choose to participate, please make sure you pass this list of rules to the blogs you are tagging. The participation rules are simple:1. If, and only if, you get tagged, write a post with links to 5 blogs that make you think,2. Link to this post so that people can easily find the exact origin of the meme, Optional: Proudly display the 'Thinking Blogger Award' "

Sunday, April 08, 2007

Christ Has Risen

Let's sing praises to God today,
As out hearts break forth in joy to say -

Hallelujah! Hallelujah!
Christ has risen from the grave!

Oh, shout the message loud and clear,
For he's removed our every fear -

Hallelujah! Hallelujah!
Christ has risen from the grave!

Good news! Good news! re-echo the sound
To countless thousands, the world around -

Hallelujah! Hallelujah!
Christ has risen form the grave!

Taken from Studying Christian Literature by CLP

Friday, April 06, 2007

Preach The Gospel to Yourself

One of my most favorite books (of a living author) is The Discipline of Grace by Jerry Bridges. If there was only one chapter of any book (beside the bible) that I could keep before all other books would be chapter 3 in this book.

I have been feeling I need to immerse myself in this chapter and scripture verses again. The chapter starts out addressing the idea that we view the gospel for the unbeliever and discipleship for the believer. Once we are saved we don't learn or see the need to apply the gospel to everyday life. He also points out that many Christians don't fully understand the gospel which hinders their ability to apply it to their own lives.

"The gospel is not only the most important message in all of history; it is the only essential message in all of history. Yet we allow thousands of professing Christians to live their entire lives without clearly understanding it and experiencing the joy of living by it.
I believe part of the problem is out tendency to give an unbeliever just enough of the gospel to get him or her to pray a prayer to receive Christ. Then we immediately put the gospel on the shelf, so to speak, and go on to the duties of discipleship. As a result, Christians are not instructed in the gospel. And because they do not fully understand the riches and glory of the gospel, they cannot preach it to themselves, nor live by it in their daily lives.

Mr. Bridges then goes on to share this scripture as the passage of scripture that most clearly explains the gospel. Then he breaks it down into 7 truths that need to be clearly understood.

Romans 3:19-26 (ESV)

19 Now we know that whatever the law says it speaks to those who are under the law, so that every mouth may be stopped, and the whole world may be held accountable to God. 20 For by works of the law no human being [1] will be justified in his sight, since through the law comes knowledge of sin. 21 But now the righteousness of God has been manifested apart from the law, although the Law and the Prophets bear witness to it— 22 the righteousness of God through faith in Jesus Christ for all who believe. For there is no distinction: 23 for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, 24 and are justified by his grace as a gift, through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus, 25 whom God put forward as a propitiation by his blood, to be received by faith. This was to show God's righteousness, because in his divine forbearance he had passed over former sins. 26 It was to show his righteousness at the present time, so that he might be just and the justifier of the one who has faith in Jesus.

More next post.

Here is a review of the book by

Thursday, April 05, 2007

Ahh...the Illusions of a Control Freak

Has it really been over a week since I posted? Time flies. Much change in the air here. We move in a few weeks, my husband just landed a new job that puts him away right up to our move. I am so excited for him but if I think to much can get overwhelmed for me :o). With help we are trying to have another baby and we will hit the 5 year mark this month of the passing of our precious boy Jonah. So that's why I haven't been around.

Ah!!!! perfection...the illusion of control freaks. I am a person who likes to get it right. When I don't I default to the inner failure pep talk. I know the truth about justification and sanctification. Clearly understand the difference. I know that I cannot earn my way to heaven. I try to look to the cross knowing that He is the only perfection; I have nothing to offer but my need....and still I tend to strive for perfection. It is an affront to the gospel BUT I still have that inner dialogue :

"Could you just get it together"

"What is wrong with you"

I believe in and (as much as possible) trust in the Sovereignty of God. Do I have a thick head?.....uh yeh! Do I have a deceitful heart?......absolutely! The question is: do I REST in what He has done for me.....NOPE!

I struggle to rest. I struggle to not do it better, faster, ............... fill in the blank. I have a hard time resting and receiving comfort. When I blow it (daily....actually hourly) I don't run for shelter where I should. I try to do more, better, faster all the while re-proving to myself that I don't measure up to a standard I cannot attain because I am not the savior...I just need to be saved. I am not good at being saved and rescued. I rebel against it. Needing help is being less than. At the end of the day it is all the pride of thinking too much of myself. It is the desire to be my own god and not be reliant and dependant.
My hearts cry is to learn to depend, to rest not in what I know but in who has saved me with great cost and find comfort there.
Help me Lord to trust in your perfection which was crushed for my sake. Thank you for your forgiveness in questioning your perfect sacrifice that has no flaws.

I received "The Valley of Vision" for my birthday. It has been sweetness to my soul. Here is a excerpt:

Grace Active
O God, may Thy Spirit speak in me that I may speak to Thee. I Lord Jesus, great high priest, Thou hast opened a new and living way by which a fallen creature can approach Thee with acceptance.
Help me to contemplate the dignity of Thy Person, the perfectness of Thy sacrifice, the effectiveness of Thy intercession.
O what blessedness accompanies devotion, when under all the trials that weary me, the cares that corrode me, the fears that disturb me, the infirmities that oppress me, I can come to Thee in my need and feel peace beyond understanding!
The grace that restores is necessary to preserve, lead, guard, supply, help me. And here Thy saints encourage my hope; they were once poor and are now rich, bound and are now free, tried and now are victorious.
Every new duty calls for more grace than I now possess, but not more than is found in Thee, the divine treasury in whom all fullness dwells. To Thee I repair for grace upon grace, until every void made by sin be replenished and I am filled with all Thy fullness.
May my desires be enlarged and my hopes emboldened, that I may honour Thee by my entire dependency and the greatness of my expectation.
Do Thou be with me, and prepare me for all the smiles of prosperity, the frowns of adversity, the losses of substance, the death of friends, the days of darkness, the changes of life, and the last great change of all. May I find thy grace sufficient for all my needs.